It's time

It has been such a productive Saturday for me.

1. Worked on my speech for next Wednesday.. Yes it's already here! (and I could still throw up just thinking about it) but I will do it!!

2. Worked on my resume. I hadn't done that for over 3 years. Wow..

3. Looked into some preschool/ programs for Lynlee..

4. Laundry, cleaned the floors, dishwasher, etc, etc, etc.....

Yes, It's still me.. Stacy... No one has hacked my blog. and you read both 2 & 3 correctly...

It's been an emotional week with lots of big decisions made around this house. But it's time.. It's time for me to get back into the working world again. Even if it's just part time.. And it's time for Lynlee to be around other kids.

For the past few weeks I've felt suffocated, trapped, bored really.. I've been home for 3 years now and it's time move on with life. Lynlee doesn't need me like she needed me in the beginning. We made the hard decision to transplant Lynlee so she can live a normal life and it's only fair for her to do that. Not to be trapped in our house for days on end because she might get sick..

When I resigned from my job it was because it was what we needed at the time. I needed to be home and take care of Lynlee. We chose to sacrifice many things so I could be home. I'm honestly surprised we've made it 3 years on one salary alone. It hasn't been easy, but now it seems a little like nonsense to live like this. We have to do what's right for us, for Lynlee and for our future.

So on Monday I'll be actively job hunting. And we will be looking into some part time programs for Lynlee to be involved it.

I'm excited! Nervous, scared, but excited....

It's still Wednesday

It's almost 10pm on Wednesday but it's still Wednesday.. I didn't have any pictures other than one for today so I snapped a few throughout the day..

This picture was taken yesterday morning before labs.. We had repeat labs this week because Lynlee's liver labs were a little high last week due to the diarrhea and fever from the weekend before. But they are back down and look great. We are still waiting the prograf level and I'm hoping she gets a few weeks off from needles.

Other than that things are going along smoothly... Ryan is working a few new shifts for the new few weeks so we've been adjusting to that.

Lynlee's telling Brody... Shhhh Daddy's sleeping

 

We did pull out the high chair this week. I know there was pictures on of Monday but these cracked me up today. At one point Lynlee had all the toys on Brodys' lap and by the time I got the phone out he was not happy with her.

 

His facial expressions kill me!!

 

So Happy Not so Wordless Wednesday or what's left of it. We are off to speech therapy tomorrow and I'm sure I'm more excited than Lynlee to show off her whistle blowing for Miss Erin. 



Happy Monday!

Some Mondays plain out stink around here. It seems like between Lynlee and sometimes Brody adjusting to the new schedule following the weekend there is A LOT of drinking crying, screaming, meltdowns around here. And Don't even get me started on how the kids act! HAHA. Kidding.. (sorta)

But today wasn't bad. I'm actually still in shock on how well it has went. Watch out tomorrow!!

But here's a few pictures that have made me smile today!

I have NO idea why her pants are down! HA!

 

:)

 

Hey Brodes, whatcha doing up there??

 

So that's my Monday.. With some laundry, cleaning, cooking, etc.....

 

Happy Day everyone! 

Weekend Recap

This weekend really wasn't too exciting. We didn't have a lot going on which is a good thing. I love waking up and having NOTHING to do all day. Drinking coffee, watching morning TV with Lynlee, being lazy.... Yes those are my favorite days.. So that's what Saturday was consumed of plus it rained all day so it worked out great. By 1pm Ryan and Lynlee were doing flip flops, back flips and head stands in my bedroom. Yes I have a video you guys would LOVE to see :) but I'm afraid Ryan might kill me... But you did read that right both were doing all three so you get the idea!!

She climbed up on the bed where the laundry was and picked out two socks of Ryans! HA

 

Today we needed out. We headed to the County Fair.. And well it wasn't anything to brag about we lucked out and saw the miniature horses do a show! Lynlee loved them!!!

 

She did ask to ride the train. I was shocked. She never wants to ride anything. Well she got on it, smiling.. And she made on lap and when she saw us I saw her lip start quivering. By the time she came back she was crying. It broke my heart into pieces. Man I love that little girl more than life itself!!

Have a great week!

Blow your whistle!!

I'm not going to lie sometimes its really hard to be around kids that are the same age or even younger than Lynlee. It's very obvious she has a speech delay and other oral delays. Her physical delay has caught up rather quickly but if you take her to the park she still sticks out. She doesn't climb up the the slide by herself or go down it for that. It's not always because she physically can't but sometimes it is depending on the situation.

She'll be three in a little over a month and I could write you a list of thing things she isn't doing and should be but I won't. I TRY so hard not to be that person that compares kids to another. It's not fair to Lynlee. Those kids that I would compare her to haven't been through 1/8 of what she has. They haven't lived in a hospital, they haven't been through multiple surgeries, they don't have a feeding tube, they haven't defied the odds like she has... So I can't compare. Lynlee has always been a kid that does things when she wanted even if she was 100% capable of doing it and she will always be that way.

She's stubborn, independent, funny, and amazing. When I think about how far we've came in 8 months it blows me away. She didn't start eating until April and look at her now. Her drinking is so much better. Her talking is improving. She's attempting things she didn't then. She's trying to use her words, she wants to talk and she WILL...

I'm not sure she even knew what her lips were for 4 months ago. She never had to use them. Never knew to close them. Blowing a bubble was a huge struggle and still is. She loves trains and whistles but couldn't blow on them....

Until today....

These are the days that make me so beyond thankful for the little things. It makes me okay with the fact that we aren't always able to get what we want because I decided to stay home and be with her. We gave up two incomes for one. So I wouldn't miss the little or big things.It makes me not take one single day or thing for granted. It gives me hope. So much hope. It gives me assurance. Assurance that we made the right decision with the liver transplant no matter what our future hold. We will always have worries but who doesn't...

So blow your whistle proudly Lynlee.. Momma is so proud and so thankful for you!

Wordless Wednesday: Awwww......

Labor Day Weekend

The long weekend is almost over and tomorrow is back to normal programming.  We will start it bright and early with blood work and then go from there.

We've had a good weekend. I'm kinda sad to see it come to an end. Ryan was off at 3:30 on Friday and goes back to work tomorrow afternoon. A very much needed family weekend together.

Saturday we went to my grandmas house for a cookout and Lynlee played a little music with her Uncle Tyler.

 

Saturday evening she got a stomach bug I guess. We were up most of the night with her tossing and turning and then around 5am her fever spiked and her diarrhea started. UGH. That put a hold up on potty training. By yesterday afternoon/evening she was back to herself. Eating and playing etc. It was nice to have a lazy day in her bedroom watching Barney though.

And today we decided to get out for a while. We went to the fire tower. I wish I would have taken a picture for those of you that haven't seen it. But Lynlee climbed all the steps to the top and back to the bottom. She didn't even hesitate once.

A few pictures we took from the top:

We did take a family one but Lynlee's eyes are CRAZY so I'll leave that one out.

Then we did some hiking at the rocks at Bear Haven. Very fun afternoon..

We concluded the weekend with fireworks this evening. Lynlee liked them as long as she was in the truck looking out the window. 

Hope everyone had a nice relaxing labor day weekend also.. (minus the poops!)