Tuesday Randoms..

I've never seen her smile like that? I hope its not a regular!

• I had planned on blogging last night but I totally got side tracked. Besides of watching the voice and being disappointed I felt like I was on the phone all night... Plus doing  100 other things.
• I have done nothing really today other than working that and I'm okay with that.
• I signed up to do the 31 day challenge of Jillian online. I debated blogging about it but thought I'd mention it so now that I'm accountable in 2 places. I took before pictures but I doubt you get to see those either. I'm so not that brave. But pretty much you vow to do 31days of Jillian. I'm doing the shred. Plus trying to eat healthier, drink lots of water and all that jazz.. We will chat more about that Nov 1st when the challenge is over.
• This weekend we went to Davis for leaf peepers festival. So much fun.
• Yesterday was labs.. Lynlee cried and cried.. She had gotten so good at them, it breaks my heart for us to be back here. They were a little high but NOTHING compared to what they have been. I'm sure it's because of the fever and the cold she has. I'm hoping we get at least a couple week break from them.
• I dread calling the insurance companies, hospitals, etc.. I will put them off forever. Yes I'm mentioning it because I'm putting it off now.. I know I have too. For the first time in almost 3 years we got a bill? Really??
• Lynlee's in school as I type. This morning she kissed us before she ran in! HA! Guess she wasn't wasting any time coming back out..

School Update

It's another exciting Friday night in this house. It's hard to believe that my Friday night has came to dinner, 1 Barney show, bath and bed time, catching up on some of my favorite blogs and maybe a glass of wine.. Gasp... Oh I forgot Pinterest... Add it in with the wine. I'm a multi tasker like that.

But the truth is I wouldn't want it any other way.

Lynlee's first day went great. She came running out when we got there and gave me a huge that melted my heart.... And she was so excited to show me her project for the day and what she had done.
And then she had school again yesterday. She was too cute. We took her in she ran up the stairs to her room, hung her backpack on the hook, ran into the room, we told her we were leaving, she ran out, kissed us and ran back in. And when I say ran I mean RAN... She acted like this was her 2nd month, not her 2nd day. I love it!

She might be the cutest thing I've ever seen... Just sayin

 

 

She talks alot about her friend anna (hannah) snack time and singing.. lol. Even thought she has a snotty nose and tried to eat out of her plate without silverware I know it was the right decision to make.



 





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First Day of School

As most of you know yesterday was supposed to be Lynlee's first day of school. She started a program at a local church for 3 days a week 3 hours a day. Monday evening we packed her backpack (i might or might not have cried the whole time) picked out her clothes and was excited about her first day. Well yesterday morning around 6:15 she woke me. She had a temperature. It definitely put the first day among other things on stand still.

We went and got a copy of her labs from Monday (perfect by the way) and then headed to the pediatrician. I was afraid her tooth might be getting infected or something. She checked out fine and and the one fever was the only one she had. The tooth looks gross. I hear it looks normal but it grosses me out to no end. But anyways... She actually had a weight gain for this check up.. I was excited for that..

We kinda planned on school today but wouldn't be sure until this morning. I wouldn't send her if she spiked again. But she didn't. She was up and ready to go this morning..

I'm not going to lie when we left there were tears.. But they were mine not hers. She hugged and kissed us and went to play with the other kids. I was so relieved. I don't know if I would have left her crying or if I did it wouldn't have been pretty. I was so scared for her. She's never been left alone with anyone other than family. I'm still scared but I'm sure that's normal and  I hope she does well the rest of the time.

I know I'm rambling. I don't have much down time and when I do I have no clue what to do with it. Brody isn't here. Ryan's asleep and Lynlee's at school... So I'm blogging... Rambling.. etc...

I'm sure there is laundry calling me name somewhere.. lucky for you guys...

Happy  Wednesday.

Never a dull moment.

Taken yesterday :)

There's never a dull moment in this house. I'm sure it's true of everyone who has a house of kids, pets etc.. but if life was ever boring I wouldn't know what to do. I'm not sure I want it to be boring but a little less exciting would be awesome sometimes..

Tonight we went from this.... Smile snap some pictures...

To Lynlee be careful you might fffff..... as the words left my mouth she was down on the floor..

Ryan came running is he she okay? Me.. I don't know she is bleeding.. It's amazing that everything we've been through the only times I've been sick is when there is blood involved. When she busted her lip in Pittsburgh I had to sit down while Ryan took care of her. When Ryan was in his car wreck I had to leave the room.. And tonight I was getting sick when Ryan was trying to see where all the blood was coming from.. I finally looked down and said. OMG where is her tooth.. Lynlee was done crying at the point. She was busy playing with the sink while the thoughts of one front tooth is running through my head... Yes I'm obviously self absorbed but Really?! a front tooth... Have we not been through enough...

But she's a trooper. Hasn't complained once... The bleeding wasn't as bad as I expected even though she is on an aspirin still. Her gum looks terrible and her lip is busted but she will be fine..

We do head for labs in the morning.

I think we are ready for school. We got her a backpack yesterday and I have all her stuff filled out ready to go. I'm sure you'll get a blog on Tuesday of how her first day went and how much I sobbed, drank, etc...

Speech, school, one hot mess...

I really wanted to blog last night. But for some reason time slipped away and I got lazy... So you get two post in one.

As most of you know yesterday was THE SPEECH... The presentation is probably more accurate but I had worried and worried about it for months. I had practiced it three times (only once in front of a real person, Ryan) and I just went with. It wasn't as bad as I thought. It's obvious I'm not the best public speaker and there wasn't anyone trying to hire me for my speaking skills but I did it. I got up in a room full of people and told our stories. Told Lynlee's story. Going back three years is hard. I don't like relieving those days. Those first days of worry and fear. But I did it. I think the presentation was ok and I'm proud of it. I got to tell the story. It promotes organ donation and makes people aware of Urea Cycle. and ultimately if one kid gets care coordination and is better off after this then my part is done.

As hard as the speech was it didn't amount to half of this morning. We had speech therapy and then went to check out Lynlee's preschool. She will be starting Shining Star on Tuesday and well I'm a mess. I cried all the way home, cried for half the morning, and hell, I'm still crying typing it. And she didn't even start yet. I know it will get easier after the first few years weeks  days. I think she will do amazing there. She LOVES kids and already knows one little girl in her class. I think she will excel in learning and I'm hoping she does the same in speech...

I know it's selfish and wrong of me to not want her to go. If I could I would lock her up in the house forever and never let her leave until she was 40, 35 30? Well married, with kids... and then I'll move in with her to be the Nanny. See I have it all planned out.  But all jokes aside we've fought so many battles and beaten so many odds that I just don't want to let her out of my sight. I know that all mothers cry the first day of school, that it's not easy on anybody, but I'm just not ready. I'll never be ready.

Time doesn't stop, kids grow up. It just seems unreal that the baby I was talking about yesterday the one the doctors said wouldn't make it.. The one I wasn't sure would see a 1st first birthday, the one that got a new liver and was the poster child for it..... is going to pre-school next week...

Yea, I told you I was a blubbering hot mess...

So I'd better go wash my face and get one with the day so that I can follow her around like a puppy...

and job hunt. I obviously need out of the house more.

Wordless Wednesday: Daddy couldn't be more proud

If you see this Tuesday just pretend it's already Wednesday. Tomorrow is going to be busy and I wanted to make sure I got this posted.

 

 

 

If you really knew me

If you really knew me you'd know........

• water is the only thing I drink except one cup of coffee most days of the week. I drink 64-100 oz of water every single day
• Ryan has been the only guy I've ever loved and I've never had my heart broke!
• I never wanted kids until I met Ryan... and now I'd give anything to have one more "healthy" one.
• I don't like other peoples kids or pets. There are a few exceptions to this... But NOT many.
• I love frozen grapes in my wine and not ice cubes!
• I've had one best friend for years.... 1 best friend and now 3 sisters is all I need!
• that I probably have OCD. I can't stand for my floors to be dirty or clothes to be in the laundry basket.
• I can be home all day and never turn on the TV, but don't take my Internet!
• I have no filter.. unless there is a backspace button..
• My language is filth. I'm actually afraid of what Lynlee will say when she talks.
• I would skip a meal or a days worth of meals for ice cream!
• I had no idea what I was going to blog about when I set down.
• that the days where I blog about me are few and far between