I used to listen to music all the time. From the minute I got into the car until I reached my destination. When I was working out, getting ready of a morning, cooking, cleaning, etc. Somewhere along the line I lost all of that and I miss it. I don't know if it's because I don't drive very far these days and if I do Lynlee's movies are always playing in the back seat. Most days I don't even get ready and when I do Lynlee is in there keeping me busy, same with me cooking, cleaning, etc. I won't even mention my lack of working out, even though I do Love the Zumba music in class :) But I don't have that silence I used too, and I don't miss that. I love the fact that Lynlee is babbling something in the back ground.
I'm amazed with out music touches us. Whether it's the song that we pick when we get married to the song that soothes our babies to put them to sleep. If we want to feel happy or sad, feel better or worse there is always a song that will do.
Ryan and I walked down the aisle to Me and You by Kenny Chesney. I smile when I hear that song because it's so perfect for us. I laugh when I hear the song "All I want to do" by Sugar Land because I know how much my sister hates it. I find myself singing it more loudly than I would just to annoy her even though she isn't there. I cry when I hear the song "I loved her first" by Heartland because I find myself praying that Ryan will get that moment with Lynlee. I could go on forever with the way songs make me feel. Even in Zumba the other night I looked at the girl beside me and said, that song makes me want to take a shot of something. HAHA.
Lynlee has always loved music. From day 1 when we would go lay down for the night in Pittsburgh we would leave music on for her. She has a lullaby machine that she (or I) can't sleep without now. The other night she spent the night with Ryan's parents and I found myself turning it on just so I could sleep. She loves the Itsy Bitsy Spider and does her own motions to it. We do "If your Happy and you know it" for hours and just switch up the motions. We clap our hands, scratch our head, praise God, etc, etc, etc.
After writing this I've realized I'm not really missing my music. I've just changed my preference of the tune.